how do you know if its just regular burnout or if its autistic burnout?
what's the difference?
and more importantly, how do I make it go away??

#autism #actuallyautistic #burnout #stress #pleasesendhelpimsooverwhelmed #onthevergeofabreakdown #anxiety #depression #mentalhealh #imrunningonlessthanzero #excited but also #overwhelmed #exhausted #tired #lgbt #trans #queer

Yesterday I was searching for Swainson's Thrush - heard them - but did not see them. Unexpectedly found two Yellow-crowned Night Herons. Night Herons are always a challenge for me to photograph well. Not sure if it is the all gray range, or the patterning, but good focus is always an issue.

Walked into a trill off between (I'm guessing 4) Northern Parulas, never saw one, but it was thrilling to stand at the trill focal point - eerie and amazing sounds.

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Since I cannot remain enraged all of the time:

I stand with Ukraine and curse Dump and his cadre of traitors. Impeach, prosecute, imprison

I stand with LGBTQ+ and curse all who judge, hate or harm them.

I stand by the Constitution and curse any to betray their oath. The Oklahoma delegation are traitors.

I stand with immigrants and defend their right to live without fear.

No one should fear retribution from an out of control infantile president.

So many worries…

https://cynnisblog.wordpress.com/2025/04/18/so-many-worries/

#Exhausted

I really hate this feeling of hopeless that inevitably comes around...It's here, and it sucks.

Saying goodbye to winter always triggers depression, even in good times.

These times? They ain't good. But I don't have it in me to be active in the greater world right now, let alone march in the streets.

Doing my end of season socializing but otherwise only talking to family and fictional people for a while.

Thank you to everyone out there protesting while I can't.

Are you tired? You look tired.

My psoriasis has really been killing me the last few days. Skin burning, stomach feeling just...not right. Extra sleepy. Happy to finally start feeling better, but it also feels like I can slip back into the abyss at any moment. Sinuses are giving me the finger today, skin threatening to give that fire feeling. See what happens... Anyway, time to work on my Author's Note for Shadowed Memories Part 1. I also need to add the first chapter of Part 2 to it. Maybe start editing Part 2.

I stayed up until 3:30 AM last night doomscrolling. I got up at 5:30AM and worked all day. I am exhausted! I can guarantee that I won’t be doing the same thing tonight!

21:00—Good Night #Fediverse!

Spent most of the day outside in the sun, and it was pretty eye-opening to see how consumerism and capitalism still manage to be present even on a Sunday when most stores are closed.

I'm totally worn out from walking around today, so I'm going to bed early.

Winston is exhausted.

Last night's dream: a man took my phone, questioned everything I said, and kept insisting I was wrong about everything.

FFS - don't I get enough of that in my waking life already??!

#feminism
#ToxicMasculinity
#exhausted

I am home today, released from hospital. I am better, but weak. I was very confused middle of the week. Thought this started with Covid. No, started with Flu-A. Couldn’t remember the doctor visiting the room. Still on antibiotics for my streptococcal pneumonia in both lungs. As I am 70 and immunocompromised, this has been double+ungood. Hair is a rat’s nest.

It’s good to be home. It’s an unusually beautiful day. A good friend brought me homemade soup, much more appealing than the hospital food. My 4 year old grandson told me on FaceTime I need to eat “veggie-buls” to be strong like him. Held up his arms and flexed them to demonstrate. He repeated this advice several times.

I actually feel weaker than at hospital. Perhaps because of the little bit more walking around the house.

Not strong enough to keep up with the News. So disheartening. #exhausted

This evening #exhausted

(please excuse me for being stressed because I am very stressed)
how can there be sixteen hours in a day for me to get shit done but I can either never or just by the skin of my fucking teeth get shit done before the day ends and I have to sleep. there's SIXTEEN HOURS that's like nine hundred and sixty minutes. HOW DO I STRUGGLE TO GET EVERYTHING DONE WHEN THERES THAT MUCH TIME??? I feel stupid and lazy for not being able to get everything that needs to be done in the day done. there's almost always SOMETHING that gets put off to tomorrow. and I hate having to use the excuse of "I don't have time" because it makes me feel like I'm a cop-out. cause if I "dont have time" then I'm supposed to "make time" but how the fuck do i make time??? I already dont have enough time and there's hardly a second during the day when I'm not doing SOMETHING. the only time would be within the eight hours for sleep. but even then I'm still thinking about all the stuff I couldn't get done today and how I'm going to fit it into tomorrow's itinerary. I get ONE day a week to just be able to breathe and take a break and try to catch up on what I can while still relaxing, but its not really even a break day then. and I also have lessons on that day. so the ONE DAY that I have a week that all I want to do is just breathe for a second, have time for a relaxing walk instead of a rushed one, and read, and do whatever else I wanted to. why can't I even have that? what am I doing wrong? how do I fix it? how do I "make more time"?? because I need more. I'm so. fucking. stressed.

A cookbook with very simple recipes with optional complexity for if you're tired or aren't confident with cooking.

#cooking #simplecooking #cfs #exhausted #chronicfatigue #vegetarian #mentalhealth

https://traumbooks.itch.io/the-sad-bastard-cookbook?fbclid=IwY2xjawIQo3pleHRuA2FlbQIxMQABHZZhBMFh_VDCMsHCkz9_6X28l5iZD7xUvjVLZblZa0ji_CZp5Z2c8g7bXw_aem_hqDBo8_x3HTL5FIrzBA8vQ

Feeling very poorly (quelle surprise!) so I tried for a nap.

The boys joined me, making the day's heat even worse.

I left them to watch birds in the snow. It worked… for a bit.

I had a cold shower - all three cats now camped outside the bathroom door.

No matter what happens, at least they love me.

#exhausted after doing #conditionreports #ThrowbackThursday when participating in #inkober in 2018, I took up the words of the list in a version for #collection management for the #museum of #newcaledonia and #conservation of #kanak and #pacific objects #comics #humor

What a year! Anybody else?