This weekend I kind of had this big realization that a lot of the struggles I've been having over the past year have been due to a promotion having increased my levels of stress which has made my ADHD worse.
I hadn't thought to contextualize these struggles in the frame of ADHD. Heck, I didn't even realize that some of the struggles I've had lately ARE related to ADHD and that they're common to ADHDers.
I tried years ago to go back on medication but it didn't work at the time. 1/2
What I also wasn't aware of is that coffee can really interfere and interact with the effects of the medication. 💊 I felt like I was bugging out and that I wasn't exactly myself, and that's because at the time I was consuming obscene amounts of ☕️ coffee in a day. more than 40oz.
Tomorrow I'll be reaching out to my family physician to see if I can try the same prescription I had before, while moderating the amount of coffee I consume, and setting up other ADHD-friendly strategies. Wish me luck!!
@fedops Thank you! It's going to be a long journey to get to a stable place but I'm hoping that I can at least see some improvement sooner than later
@brandon yes! There's also the point of rising up through the ranks and what it will do to your personal balance level. Or indeed changing jobs.
I could have gotten onto the management gravy train at various points of my career (and indeed there's another option right now) but I fear it would remove me from what I like to do and adding things I don't like. Thereby increasing stress levels and upsetting the balance. I'm not willing to take that risk.
@fedops Yeah this promotion is kind of what I wanted and it's part of my goals but if I want to be effective at this new position (coordination of office IT work) then I will need to find ways to get more organized and take care of business, y'know?
@brandon yup. Like find the sweet spot for your job performance, stress level, and longtime health. I think that's the most important thing, not only for ADHD sufferers but in general to prevent burnout.
@fedops That's what I've been most worried about, is burnout. I kept telling myself you just need to try harder, you just need to push, you just need to set up one more tool (that you'll end up forgetting about in a week) and finally you'll be the productive person that you want to be! It's all lies :/
@brandon I know burnout is a very personal subject and there is no silver bullet. What's worked for me:
Set realistic goals that are ambitious but not delusional. Plan with buffers.
At the end of a work segment (usually a week though can be 1 day), end on a high. Complete something, or aim to meet a certain progress milestone.
Have a way to show progress to yourself. If nothing else, write a document or short presentation "for the drawer".
Don't go full bore every day. This isn't a race. 1/2
Choose your battles. Don't fight every one, and try not to be drawn into them.
Be good in what you do. Learn your craft. Exercise. With knowledge comes confidence. Problems appear smaller when you're confident. Burnout happens more often to anxious people.
Be competent in lots of things, specialize on certain areas. Keep up with new developments and improve in your chosen areas, also to keep your confidence levels.
This is what's worked for me over the past 30 years.
@brandon it won't be an easy change, but hopefully even a small change is helpful.
Progress will take time, so don't be dissapointed if you don't see any progress for the first while.
(And you may not see progress but those closest to you may see a change so be sure to get their honest feedback)
@g Thanks for the feedback, I really appreciate it :) I don't have hopes of miracles being done and I know that I will have to put in my own work in being honest about what's working and what's not. Up until now I've been lying to myself about my abilities so that's been the first step here. The next step I think aside from medication is recognizing what's an impulse, what's not, as well as recognizing when I'm shifting attention due to XYZ reason and seeing what I can do to help with that.
@brandon Not to argue with you, but I know an ADD expert who worked on research for a long time. His opinion is that many people are misdiagnosed with ADD. It has similar symptoms as anxiety disorders. The problem is that ADD meds make everyone amazing and people get addicted when all they needed was a mild anti-anxiety meds. He would recommend going to a specialist rather than a family doctor. Family doctors don't have the specific training/experience.
@MrDers My family doctor was not the one who did the diagnosis. I was diagnosed by a specialist at a mental health facility.
I appreciate the concern but I also won't solely be relying on medication to help regulate my impulsivity and attention. I will also be employing the same strategies that I've been trying to put in place up until now.
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